Last Tuesday, I was depressed.
Last Wednesday, God, through some amazing people save me.
Last Thursday, my grandma passed away and my best friend got mad at me.
Last Thursday, he saved my life.
Last Sunday, I skipped church to avoid him.
Monday, I read my letter at the prayer service. Many, many people told me how great I did.
Tuesday, I struggled my way through the funeral and school.
Wednesday, an amazing person came up to me and proved they cared.
Today, I want to punch someone from show choir in the face.
Today, I'm excited for my trip tomorrow.
Today, I'm hopeful that maybe, maybe he'll admit what ALL my friends say is true.
Tomorrow, I'll think how a month ago I told my best friend I didn't think I'd make it to this trip.
Tomorrow, I will be having the best time I've had in a long time, riding a church van to Minniesota.
This trip will be my vacation.
And just to say, I wouldn't be here without a certain two people. My best friend. And... the person I wish liked me back. You saved me, you may think I only like you because of that, or because you're kinda cute. No. I like you because you are you. Funny, sweet, caring, and God-loving you.
It's okay if you never notice that, or never like me back, because I'll always remember you telling me that I can make it through this... and that alone is enough to keep me going.
Showing posts with label me. Show all posts
Showing posts with label me. Show all posts
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Monday, January 10, 2011
A Billion Thoughts
You know the days when your mind races? It's trying to catch up with everything that happened in the last minute? Last hour? Last day? Last week? Month? Year? I seem to have a lot of those days. Days when the world is spinning faster then I can keep up. Today was another one of those days. I can't help but wonder how many more are to come.
But as quickly as it spun out of control, it came back into focus. Writing a lot, praying some and God turned things around. I still have questions, I may ask why, but no matter what I can't deny that God doesn't work.
You brought a smile to my face when the world was spinning too fast. Thank you for that, you showed me God was still there, even if it didn't feel like or you never said it. You will never know how much that means to me.
I still want to type many other things, but I have some other things I need to do, like write letters and look up a Bible verse. I will post again soon, promise.
But as quickly as it spun out of control, it came back into focus. Writing a lot, praying some and God turned things around. I still have questions, I may ask why, but no matter what I can't deny that God doesn't work.
You brought a smile to my face when the world was spinning too fast. Thank you for that, you showed me God was still there, even if it didn't feel like or you never said it. You will never know how much that means to me.
I still want to type many other things, but I have some other things I need to do, like write letters and look up a Bible verse. I will post again soon, promise.
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Meaning Behind It All
I have a song that uses those lyrics ^^^ yes, random I know.
Anyway, I'm here to explain the title of my blog aka the meaning behind it.
I really love this whole blogging thing, I just want to type and type and type some more, maybe I'm just strange...
Okay, back on task. My blog is called "Beautifully Broken." Why?
Ever heard the song Broken & Beautiful by Mark Schultz? If you have, great, it's truly a very good song! My blog would be called Broken and Beautiful but that's stealing the title, so it's Beautifully Broken. It implies how all of us are broken. Just look around you, that girl in seventh period with the love for cookies: she's really a terrified victim. That girl every calls a s***, she's really just looking for love she doesn't find at home. That girl who seems to be so strong: she's really falling apart and at her last resort. The mom who voulenteers for everything : A women lost in depression. The lady you passed in the grocery store: a women struggling with her past. That guy in black standing on the corner, some say he's a stoner, but he's really just trying to escape the lies.
Every single one of us is broken. Or we used to be. Of six billion people in this world, around half struggle with depression or thoughts of suicide. I created this blog, since I do not have the means of creating a website. I want with all my heart to create a website devoted to helping those who are struggling. Yes, we have organizations like TWLOHA, and websites like sixbillionsecrets, but TWLOHA supports are few and far between. And sixbillionsecrets is a site where your secret has to be voted on just to be published. No one gets the help they need.
So here I am, I want to start something new, something real, something that will help! I was there, I was broken, suicidal, God saved my life. I don't want Beautifully Broken to shove God down people's throats. No way. I want people to stand up! Step up! Be heros! Those of us who are no longer broken, those of us who know how to over come things, to reach out!
Teen suicide rates have gone up. I know at least two of my best friends have thoughts like that daily, two of three! I strive to be there for my friends, anytime they need it. And I'm not stopping there. I'm going to start this revolution if it takes everything I've got! Starting with this blog, maybe people will join me, maybe they won't, maybe my words will give someone hope, either way I'm doing it. If anyone needs someone to talk to, email me. I will check every single day. Maybe no one will even read this, but it still will not stop me. Because lives can and will be saved, but it takes a hero to change the course of history. That, is the meaning behind this blog.0
Anyway, I'm here to explain the title of my blog aka the meaning behind it.
I really love this whole blogging thing, I just want to type and type and type some more, maybe I'm just strange...
Okay, back on task. My blog is called "Beautifully Broken." Why?
Ever heard the song Broken & Beautiful by Mark Schultz? If you have, great, it's truly a very good song! My blog would be called Broken and Beautiful but that's stealing the title, so it's Beautifully Broken. It implies how all of us are broken. Just look around you, that girl in seventh period with the love for cookies: she's really a terrified victim. That girl every calls a s***, she's really just looking for love she doesn't find at home. That girl who seems to be so strong: she's really falling apart and at her last resort. The mom who voulenteers for everything : A women lost in depression. The lady you passed in the grocery store: a women struggling with her past. That guy in black standing on the corner, some say he's a stoner, but he's really just trying to escape the lies.
Every single one of us is broken. Or we used to be. Of six billion people in this world, around half struggle with depression or thoughts of suicide. I created this blog, since I do not have the means of creating a website. I want with all my heart to create a website devoted to helping those who are struggling. Yes, we have organizations like TWLOHA, and websites like sixbillionsecrets, but TWLOHA supports are few and far between. And sixbillionsecrets is a site where your secret has to be voted on just to be published. No one gets the help they need.
So here I am, I want to start something new, something real, something that will help! I was there, I was broken, suicidal, God saved my life. I don't want Beautifully Broken to shove God down people's throats. No way. I want people to stand up! Step up! Be heros! Those of us who are no longer broken, those of us who know how to over come things, to reach out!
Teen suicide rates have gone up. I know at least two of my best friends have thoughts like that daily, two of three! I strive to be there for my friends, anytime they need it. And I'm not stopping there. I'm going to start this revolution if it takes everything I've got! Starting with this blog, maybe people will join me, maybe they won't, maybe my words will give someone hope, either way I'm doing it. If anyone needs someone to talk to, email me. I will check every single day. Maybe no one will even read this, but it still will not stop me. Because lives can and will be saved, but it takes a hero to change the course of history. That, is the meaning behind this blog.0
Welcome
Well, welcome to my new blog! If you find this, good for you, maybe something I say might actually help someone, who knows. Now, time for a little introduction.
I'm Kerri, and I'm just another teen blogger. Okay, that's a down-right lie. I'm different, crazy, and down-right strange sometimes.
I don't have an overly keen sense of fashion like some, I'm not incrediably poetic (in fact, I really don't even think poetry is my weak suit, more like down-right horrible suit.), I don't have any crazy emotional things to tell, and I'm pretty much clueless when it comes to romance.
Here's what I do have: I'm a teenager, with three amazing best friends, a good guy friend, another guy who makes me laugh a lot, a strange ability to write song lyrics but they are NOT poetic, a love of writing fiction, a chance at a show choir solo, one 56,000 word manuscript sitting on my desk, a 3-inch binder of stories and ex-stories, and a faith in God that is immovable.
I created this for two reasons, a place to share anything I need and want to, and a place for me to give/get advice. According to my best friend, I give good advice when her and her boyfriend fight. This is probably because I've read more teen dating books than almost anyone. I'll probably put some of songs on here. I'll be very happy when people read them :)
This is me blog, welcome to it :) I'll explain it's title next post. I think I used down-right a few too many times this post... :P
<3
I'm Kerri, and I'm just another teen blogger. Okay, that's a down-right lie. I'm different, crazy, and down-right strange sometimes.
I don't have an overly keen sense of fashion like some, I'm not incrediably poetic (in fact, I really don't even think poetry is my weak suit, more like down-right horrible suit.), I don't have any crazy emotional things to tell, and I'm pretty much clueless when it comes to romance.
Here's what I do have: I'm a teenager, with three amazing best friends, a good guy friend, another guy who makes me laugh a lot, a strange ability to write song lyrics but they are NOT poetic, a love of writing fiction, a chance at a show choir solo, one 56,000 word manuscript sitting on my desk, a 3-inch binder of stories and ex-stories, and a faith in God that is immovable.
I created this for two reasons, a place to share anything I need and want to, and a place for me to give/get advice. According to my best friend, I give good advice when her and her boyfriend fight. This is probably because I've read more teen dating books than almost anyone. I'll probably put some of songs on here. I'll be very happy when people read them :)
This is me blog, welcome to it :) I'll explain it's title next post. I think I used down-right a few too many times this post... :P
<3
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)